You only get the one life, my friend. Well, except here, but this is a strange place and we can set its strange rules aside for the moment. Your life going in a very different direction than you had planned does not mean it is not the same life, all the same.

And however different it may be, the life you lead seems to be one you are at least somewhat happy with, yes? Do not discount that. You are an assassin, so you should appreciate the same things I do - particularly taking full advantage of whatever pleasures may come, because they are few and far between and do not last.